There’s a difference between desire & actively willing something into existence.
If you say you want ‘X’ yet you spend your time doing ‘Y’, then what you are saying through action is exactly opposite of what your words are saying. The same existence you are currently living is what you ‘actual’ desire because you are putting in no actions to change it.
Big difference between desire & actualizing your vision.
What do you spend your time on? What kind of information do you consume? What action do you take with what you have consumed?